Kryptonite.

Run.

Get far away from me.

I am dragging the both of us down.

We will never be, don't you see.

You have to flee.

To you I am bound.

You cause more pain than pleasure.

No one else can measure.

I searched the world and thereafter

I found no one that mattered.

This is not our reality, he spits

He always tries to quit, he can't

I always pull him in, he comes.

I reach for him, but he is already done.

and then he is gone.

Confused and yet again alone.

I am left waiting by the telephone.

I close my eyes, burning hot

The tears stream down, I don't make a sound

I can't.

Kelly Rose.

A Change Of Pace.

Hello world.

So it has been a minute since I wrote anything. There has been so much going on in my life. I guess I will start with the most important. My little girl is going into the first grade next week, and I am beside myself. I am so happy for her. She has grown so much in just the past year alone. I do not know what to do with myself. I did go to Colorado for those of you you who read my previous blogs. I have pictures I just haven't uploaded them to my computer yet. So that means you have to wait...

I found a new place to live recently. I really had to take a step back and adjust my life a little. Me and my husband had rented this house last year and over that year so much has gone wrong. Luckily for us, our lease is up. So instead of getting something big and expensive, we decided to move back into an apartment. This really is a big decision. I hated almost every apartment I have lived in. However, this house now might as well be an apartment. Our neighbors are disrespectful and loud. I wish It was just a little noise from an upstairs unit. Our street is littered lost or stray dogs, some violent. I have had it with this house. On top of all that we also live close to the train depot which means no matter what time of the day or night it is trains will plow right by, shaking and waking all inside. Over the year I have actually gotten use to them. I remember my first week here I could not take the sound. I freaked out. I wanted to call and cuss someone out. There is and was nothing I could do about the trains. 

This new place makes me feel like I am somewhere else. It is over looking a pretty park and a water splash pad park. I am so excited to take my daughter right to the park in our backyard. The condo is an upstairs unit and It has a private staircase on the back patio. The condo itself is actually quite big. The master bedroom is the winner of the place. It is huge with an amazing bathroom. I have so much counter space I don't know what I'm going to do with it. I just feel like we are going to be so happy there. I just know it. I know I've mentioned in the past that things have been good and bad. It is really hard working through obstacles in life and when your spouse is not there it can be even harder. I feel like with my husband we fight all the time. Our fights range from fighting about dinner to common misunderstandings. I think these are common things to argue about after living with each other all of these years. 

I have moved to many places. I like to think we leave our footprints in these houses. I can feel the energy in every home the minute you walk in. I felt that way here before everything started falling apart. Some houses just have a bad energy. This is one of those where we just need to get the fuck out of here. I for one cannot wait. This is going to be a slow and busy month for me. I have so much to do. I promise I will have the Denver pics up in the next blog, along with moving updates and so much more exciting stuff. I will see you next time.

Kelly Rose.