People Talk.

I am sitting here alone

Just trying to maintain

I am counting all of my blessings

I am always trying to change

I am stuck

I have been here for some time

I am in a rut

There is nothing left to do but climb

Everything happens for a reason

or at least that is what they say

It is the change of the season

One that keeps you at bay

You listen to what they say

Kelly Rose

Me and My Headphones.

I am closed off from the world. I become invisible the minute I put on my headphones. It is just me and my music. I can feel it surging through my veins instantly making every problem disappear or amplify. At this moment it is neither. My problems are still there, however I do not feel worse. I am just alone in my head dancing on the dance floor of my mind. I fade away....

I am sure we all feel that way every now and then. I think that is why music is so great. Every person can just loose themselves, even for a moment. Life is too short to always take yourself so seriously. I can be the worst offender of that one. I am not that girl right now though. I am swaying my body, eyes closed, one with myself. I am at peace. 

At this moment this is the song I find myself going towards. It's lyrics have no meaning to me. My husband is not cheating. I just think it was covered well. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8z5X9_3HCRQ

If you did not click the link you were missing the Florence Welch from Florence and the Machine. She is covering the famous rap song "I don't wanna know". I have been finding gems like this on YouTube. I just love it.

Off I go!

Kelly Rose.

Pieces of me, for you!

This is kind of an interesting thing I have been working on. I of course wanted to share if with all 4 of my fans. I have been writing since about 5th grade. I do not mean just writing letters and shit. I wrote my first short story in the 5th grade. I received author of the year award and this was a catalyst. I have been writing since. I have written too many short stories to count, countless poems, and the occasional screen play. I went through my work and not all of it was good enough to make the cut. I found little pieces of beauty in some of the poems. That my friends is what I am about to show you. 

04-25-05                                Alone in a cold cluttered hell

What do I do? I am surrounded by lies

. I do not have time to think of where I will take this life.

 The whole world is resting in my hands.

 The weight is crushing me down. I am lost in a storm, desperate to survive

. I am born to live, then I live to die.

I was going through a bit of a phase...

10-29-05                                                        Untitled

Once upon a time, there was emptiness.

I had resigned.

I met the one. He flew me away.

Now he is gone, I am gone

Life moves on.

He took my breathe away.

He takes my pain away.

Once upon a time, he came and took me high.

He took. Then he left all the same.

Leaving me the one in pain.

When you love you loose.

The hurt covers where the butterflies once flew.

That one was actually kind of good right. I was 15 years old when I wrote that. I knew nothing of true love yet my words cut so deep. I did see myself older. I have one more I would like to share.

02-24-05                                             Love is the only way

I can taste you on my lips.

What is left still lingers from your kiss.

I can smell you, like you stand before me.

I know it is nothing more than a dream.

For how can a girl like me hope for any more.

I was pretty love crazy 15 year old. I guess I am still a love crazy 23 year old as well. Some things do not change. I hope you guys like the inside look into my genius. 

Kelly E.

I'm Possible.

It has been awhile hasn't it? 

I have transformed myself into something I thought I could never be. I am naturally a lazy person. I love to sit on my butt and watch TV, movies, YouTube videos whatever I please really. I was living the dream. You know this, I mentioned this. I did not have to find a second job just work harder at the one I already had, who knew! My poor hubby is still out of commission. I have never worked harder in my life. It feels shitty AND rewarding. 

I made a list my friends. What kind of list you ask all interested and shit? A list that will change my life forever (insert evil laugh here). It is a bucket list in a way. The things I want to happen in my life. I will share with my beloved readers. Only you make me feel this way! I started with something simple. 

1. Visit New York and watch a Broadway play. This is a dream I have had since I was in high school. I loved the theater and musicals. I dreamed of playing a lead role in a play. I may one day who knows. 

2. Kiss under the Eiffel Tower.... While somebody takes a cheesy picture of said kiss.

3. Learn a new state. I have lived in Oklahoma for most of my life. I was not born here so I have that going for me. I do know my way around Texas but that is not good enough!!

4. Learn Guitar. I have forgotten how to keep my rhythm and my chords. I have slowly started to read the music again. This one is challenging for me. I try to play a little every day to get a better feel for it. I need to remember to be more confident in myself. I give up so easily.

5. Save money. Can anyone do this one? We will see.....

6. Buy a house, Have another baby, get better job, etc is all on there. 

7. Enjoy my life more, relax more, and breathe.

There were other things on my list that I did not share with you. I gave you a little something something and you should be just fine. The reason I am sharing my list in the first place is to show you that I have a plan. There is no more of me worrying what my next step is. Some of the things on my list may never happen, and that is okay. I would just like to know that if I worked hard I could achieve the things I set out to do. I made that list 2 weeks ago. I have already crossed one thing off. I will leave you with a quote from a brilliant mind you know as my own. 

"Life is what you make it. Your dreams can fly by. You have to reach up and take it!"

-Kelly E.

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